Okay, stupid blog title, I know. Loads of kids hate their school. Well, I'm no different. Thing is, most of the kids hate their school because of the fact that they have to get up early and they dislike the teachers, so on, so forth.
I would love my school, if the teachers were actually good at teaching and... Certain people didn't go to my school, I would adore it, probably ACTUALLY wake up eager to go, not all fretty and depressed.
The only reason I hate school is because of the bullying. I'm not the only child with this problem, there are loads of kids who are bullied. I'm just too weak to put up with it quietly.
The teachers bully the students, and the students bully each other. It's like... A bloody jungle, I guess. I hate that I'm just sitting there, minding my own business and someone decides to bug me.
"Oh, you're reading?"
I ignore them, hoping they'll leave. When they suddenly start teasing me, calling me a sl*t, sk*t, Harriet Potter, Soapy Water, and one boy even shoved his empty crisp packet down my jacket and said, "Oh sorry, I have to put my rubbish in the bin."
Somehow, out of all I've been through, it's this small thing that I've let get to me. This stupid kid messing around with me that made me take a bath as soon as I got home so I didn't have to face my Mum and talk to her, so I didn't have to face anywhere. I stayed in the bathroom for hours, crying my eyes out. I shouldn't let it get to me, but it did. My parents don't know I get bullied, I don't plan on telling them, either. Because they'll over-react. Like they do. They'll tell me to fight back.
I can't.
I honestly want to believe I can just lie low and ignore everyone. But they just bug me, they mess with me and they make me come home feeling like I belong in a sewer.
Which I don't.
I'm not going to let this ruin me. I'm not going to just give up because of some people who hate me. F**k them. I am who I am, I can't help that, I'm not going to bloody change to fit in to society. So... I'm just going to put up with it I guess. Talking to them makes it worse, ignoring them makes them try and hit me. So, I'm going to do the... I guess, 'hard' thing, and just sit back and take it. Hmph.
*huggles*
ReplyDeleteLeto, I was bullied, but you seemed to have eliminated all the methods that I used. I'm glad you've finally decided on a way to make things better. I hope it works out for you.
Unfortunately, I agree with your tactic - taking it is the only way to make them stop.
ReplyDeleteFor about a year, I was teased for being 'gay', when I was not and a rumor was spread about me.
All I did was ignore everyone who judged me without asking me whether the rumor was true. That really defined who my friends were.
I encourage you to do the same: ignore everyone as best as you can, and hang out with people who don't judge you.
Sadly, I can't teleport or come up with the money to visit you and hug you. So a cyber hug will do.
*hugs really tight*
You know who loves you. It doesn't matter what they think, we love you. (I love you the mos-*shot*)
:)